4 Steps To a Good Life

Be optimistic.

Love Life.

Win.

Wooooot =)

No Missed calls.

Nothing bothers me more than waiting for a phone call from someone/somewhere to come through to my cell phone or house phone. Only to be dissappointed by not recieving any call in general.

Its such a sucky feeling over all to experience rather often. Oh well I shouldnt expect anything from anyone in general, because it wouldnt be fair due to the rest of the world having lives and responsibilities of thier own.

I should cut to the chase and just simply get over my self.

xoxo o.o?!

Am I Trying to Hard?

This whole idle thought of me wondering who I am has been on my mind for a long time these days. Its really weird, I sometimes wonder am I tryig to hard to different?

Is it really necessary for me to be that unique, well not to be but in other words want to stand out from the generic crowd?? I mean what over powering force is compelling, motivating and convincing me to strive to be so unique? I mean im already so far left wing, theres obivously no real return for who or what other people within our general society should percieve me as.

It seems my personality and mentality is that of an asian or cockasian (if I spelt that correctly) or so ive been told. Well I would of course agree with this fact, which is easily stated or pointed out by others. 

I mean is there something wrong with me being very different? Also the question that comes to mind is:

Am I trying to hard to be different?

Going to be a bad day...

I called in to the office to see what time I would start work only to find out that I accidentally threw out some paper work yesterday, that shouldnt have been thrown out...

Shit, I think im going to be in alot of shit when I go into work later on today around 2 p.m. Its really odd, ive been making alot of mistakes lately but this happens to be the biggest one recently. 

I wish that I had not misunderstood what my friend told me to throw out.

Especially since the paperwork that is missing belongs to a huge customer for the company that I work for. 

Damn, I dont even feel as if I want to go into work, im totally dreading the fact that everyone wil know that theres somthing wrong. Also the main fact that I am the main cause of why what is wrong.

Maybe I should quit?

+1 year to my life

Id like to hope that im becoming a better person each day, but these days there seems to be alot of room for improvement, with everything thats happening within my life. But that does not change one percise fact" I need to become a new and improved me" I want to become better than the person I was yesterday. 

I want to reach for the stars and accomplish as many of my goals as possible. My birthdays coming up rather soon ( 11 Days), I know its not that important and i don't expect anything from absolutely anyone. I usually make things up to my self by purchasing something large enough to distract me such as a : car, or an H.d t.v with ps3 video games this year.

I just hope that the one majour goal that i want to accomplish will become accomplished and completely achieved this week. Even if I am to fail i guess it would be as much as a surprise to me because I didn't attempt to accomplish it as best as I could.

Until then I believe that I can change my future, and ill keep trying to do so.

Seeing sounds >_

So I guess im blind? After all these years i thought my hearing would be worse than my vision simply because im always playing music an obsessively loud volumes at which can damage your hearing, or so people say.

So lol I need new glasses and I still havnt came to a conclusion of what kind of frames I wanna rock. I had no idea that eye wear could be such a costly thing to purchase. I have another eye doctor apppointment on thursday or i think friday, which is where i need to decide what kind of frames i want and to finally get my glasses made so that i can see properly. =)

Ill probably choose something really geeky, which will probably completely show a tiny bit of who i am. I dont want anything that is not noticable, because im not that kind of guy.

I got scammed!!

So it seems my debit card got scammed recently. Fuck, simply because its the only thing that i happen to use as much as my car keys, which i need to drive my car.

I lost about $208.00 which to some would be not alot of money. But to me its worth a large loss simply because its two days of work roughly for me.

But you know shit happens, I guess ill be more careful and not use my debit card at sketcy places such as bestbuy and Amc theater, which is where I got bonned.

Until then stay safe.