World War?

There this song called Viva La Vida by: Cold Play. For some reason the lyrics remind me of a really heated game of Risk that went down with me and a few friends not to long ago. It lasted about 2 days. Started friday night, and went all night into the morning and then into the night and late in the morning of saturday. I know, I know me and my friends are such geeks. But thats ok anyways simply because its our peaceful way of wasting our youth. 

Heres a short clip of the song. Its rather colorful and intense in fact the videos exactly how I would have imagined it to be.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=QulYSXQPC2Q

Peace not War =)

Until Next Time

So i got a text yesterday from "L" which is probably the most contact we have had with each other since i was rejected and we fell out. We spoke for a bit, and she mentioned something about having a boyfriend now. I was all happy to speak to her even though it was for a short duration of time. My mood quickly changed, I felt as if I was slapped hard in the face with reality which is why i came to the conclusion that I had wasted a large amount of my life and time with her. Even though it was rather pleasureable. She said that we could still be friends, but I already know whats going to happen being the kind of guy that I am. I'll most likely end up ignoring her completely depending on my mood, which will eventually and quickly evolve and turn into me cutting her off. Memories of the "situation" of our past burns me to the equivalent of my flesh being touched with a searing hot iron. WIth the intent of branding my very heart with dissappointment, and sorrow. 

Anyways ill continue moving on. I should have expected this from the very beggining.

Until next time, it was nice knowing you "L"

Its your Loss. =)

Craving some PHO!

Me and a close friend went out for pho yesterday, before working on my S-chasis. It was fucking awesome simply because they made the best wonton wraps ive ever eaten in my life o.o!!!. That place was bomb also becuase they give such large amounts of food for such litte $$'s.

Just go with it?

We'll see where this road I am traveling takes me. One spontaneous action can change your entire direction in life. You can either try to take it back or just go with it. I'll go with the latter, it's kind of nice to try and stick to a decision I made for once. Not having to deal with six months of cold hearted thoughts. plus the weathers fab right now.

Those Weekends - Linkin Park - Reanimation

Linkin Park - Reanimation - Ppr Kut

http://youtube.com/watch?v=mC8fAvOr_Rk&feature=related

I miss those weekends where you just dont give a fuck. Fuck your emo music and your commercialized hip hop and clam jams. This will never get old to me.

La Ritournelle

It's just one of those days. Hard to focus on anything. Hard to do anything except getting lost in what was and what could have been. Everytime I think I'm okay it seems to just hit me out of nowhere. You were mine for a long period of time and you aren't anymore. I miss hearing your voice, I miss your touch, I miss your smell, I miss your smile. I miss you. It's been almost 6 months and you still have this hold on my heart. You still have that power to make me lose my breath and leave me speechless when you walk into a room. The power to make my heart skip a beat everytime our eyes meet.

Someone said I probably just miss the feeling of having someone over really missing you. I laughed. I could have someone right now if I wanted but no one I've met has come close to being able to take your place. It's great that we are still able to be friends and it hurts that that is all we are now. People say moving on gets easier with time, how much time does it take? It's not any easier today then it was yesterday or the day before that or the day before that. I miss you my little monster.

I still feel you o.o?!

Welcome Back - Good Bye

Its been evident that it has been months ( approximately two) since I last posted anything at all here. I have a total of 11 un-posted entries, that ive decided to not post.

but that is not important, or is what i consider to be worth making an issue - well no...... a matter. The point being right now what is currently on my mind is not "L" (who i have no introduced at all yet to anyone or my thoughts or overall feelings about the ordeal that took place recently, which left me alone and heart broken
.) but "E" and how she is gone forever. the thought that ill never have contact with "E" in person or through spoken word feels odd. I called "E" yesterday, to remind her that it was "C's" birthday, only to be greeted by an operating machine - monotone type robotic voice telling me that "the number you have dialed is no longer in service"..... I paused for a moment in silence.

"E" is gone completely, forever is all i thought for a good 10 minutes or so. I decided that it would be best not to tell "Cs" or his fiance "M" simply because it wouldn't matter to either them, nor would they understand. Besides "M" would reply with apathetic opinions and remarks, about everything that happiend that happiend or could have happiend involving me and "M" as well as referring to how i was burnt by "L" and and how i am a "Damn Fool" that will never learn.

its been two minutes and this has already turned into a rather lengthy post, has not reached its overall point, or moral. "L" sent me a text message asking "hows life?" I decided not to reply after a minute or two of thought about how to answer the question at hand. After those thoughts I came to the conclusion that maybe it would be best if i did not reply at all. Maybe she was thinking of me. Or maybe she was bored.

"E" is forever gone. I never got to let her know how I truly felt about her and I. Maybe its for the overall best, well maybe for me. But I cant help, but feel that she felt the same way I did about her......something seems to be silently suggesting that, im not sure of where its coming from or why.

I wanted to be with "L" as much as "E" but theres no point at all dwelling on those thoughts, of what if? or maybe in the future. Those possibilities never come at all, well not in this life time. Maybe im just wishful thinking. Need is important, want is dangerous.

I still feel you.